Saturday, August 28, 2010

Why does it hurt so bad......

No one likes to lose a close friend, acquittance, boyfriend, or family member. But sometimes it just comes to that point where you have no choice. The relationship is just a strain on your emotions and your body. It interferes with how you live your life, and feel about your self. Some times you can see it coming, sometimes you don't, and sometimes you do like me ignore it and give them the benefit of the doubt.

Well for the past couple of weeks I've been going through the ups and downs of some emotionally draining/manipulating so called friends, one I have known for years. I knew from the get go that my closest long time friend was a manipulator constantly playing with my mind and emotions, letting me down and putting me down but I tried over and over again to give em a chance and ended up in heartache and doubt about myself, and the other one I slammed the door shut before it got started too deep like my other friendship.

As of lately I  made a pact with myself to better care of my self both physically and mentally after going through a lot of medical drama. I wanted to dump the emotionally draining people because they were draining the one thing I cherish the most my creativity and my self esteem causing unnecessary stress in my life.

And as of yesterday after telling my other friends for weeks I was dumping my this emotionally draining person out of my life. I finally did, after catching them in their final lie and let down. It hurt me and angered me to the point I could not take it anymore and had to let them go. Even though it was freeing but still very painful to lose someone you thought you could trust.

But like Rihanna says "Never a mistake only a lesson", and a hard lesson indeed. But in the end it's making me stronger, wiser and more jaded about the people I let get close to me. And more over to trust my instincts and to never ignore the little red flags that pop up in my mind.

Until next time

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Oohhhh.. My stiff neck ....

On a health kick to to keep my bod sexy and toned I took up, you guessed it swimming. It started as a class to improve my stroke and help me overcome my fear of the deep water. But has now turned into a 4x a week regimen of 20-30 laps. I just just got into it last week and now I'm feeling the burn of muscle baby. Well I can't complain too much I get to show of my sexy bikinis I made.

Well I'm off to get a massage by my kitty.

Until next time


Dusting off my crafty boots

It's been a long long long long time since I put anything in my poor neglected shop but I finally dusted off my crafting boots and listed this little number in my shop: Check it out here. There is more to come so keep an eye peeled for more of my lovely items.

Until next time,


Sunday, August 22, 2010

One down more stuff to go (blog revamp)

Well guys I'm done creating the banner for my blog. It was based on one of my lovely sketches for one my sexy outfits. Turing this sketch in to a vector was long and pain staking(well for one who just jumped right into using inkscape). But I love it. And now I have to finish the rest of my stuff for the revamp of this blog. I'll be back with more updates for this blog.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

I'm back................. and with new plans

I'm back on the scene after a few distractions from life. I will be rebuilding my blog again so please pardon my dust as I rebuild. I will be back with updates soon.