Well for the past couple of weeks I've been going through the ups and downs of some emotionally draining/manipulating so called friends, one I have known for years. I knew from the get go that my closest long time friend was a manipulator constantly playing with my mind and emotions, letting me down and putting me down but I tried over and over again to give em a chance and ended up in heartache and doubt about myself, and the other one I slammed the door shut before it got started too deep like my other friendship.
As of lately I made a pact with myself to better care of my self both physically and mentally after going through a lot of medical drama. I wanted to dump the emotionally draining people because they were draining the one thing I cherish the most my creativity and my self esteem causing unnecessary stress in my life.
And as of yesterday after telling my other friends for weeks I was dumping my this emotionally draining person out of my life. I finally did, after catching them in their final lie and let down. It hurt me and angered me to the point I could not take it anymore and had to let them go. Even though it was freeing but still very painful to lose someone you thought you could trust.
But like Rihanna says "Never a mistake only a lesson", and a hard lesson indeed. But in the end it's making me stronger, wiser and more jaded about the people I let get close to me. And more over to trust my instincts and to never ignore the little red flags that pop up in my mind.
Until next time
